waves

alone in the night
a deep darkness fills me
memories bubble to the surface
with no way to stop them
remembering ebbing waves of pleasure
a feathered kiss
a foreign touch
my emotions change like the tide at sea
brilliant heights and cold isolated lows
tasting the salt from my eyes
i long for the past
lost in memories....
i sail into a distant oblivion
  strength

pretending
crying in the dark
fighting myself for inner peace
fighting the world to prove
that i can
i will have
strength



a year ago tonight

a year ago tonight
loneliness left me
a safe happiness took its place
a year ago tonight
i knew your love
i felt your touch
and looked deep into your eyes
now i'm longing for
a year ago tonight